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THE FLU! 24 hours of hell and puking and friends barging into your room to tell you there latest drama when all you want to do in curl up in a ball and die. The only good part: You loose 5 pounds in one night. I know it is probably just water weight but I was 124.8 and then I woke up at 120.0 I haven’t been too dedicated to loosing weight recently and have been just maintaining 124 for like the past two weeks but now this is the jump start I needed! hopefully I don’t binge and fuck everything up

:/

feeling a little better woke up at 7:15 to go on a run. I went to the track and did 2 miles
Before run: 124.6
After run: 124.2

not the best but I heard running in the morning boosts the metabolism so maybe after classes I will be smaller. 
Then I did 100 crunches and ten butt lifts, my butt is wayyyyy to saggy
I am hoping in-between my 10:30 class and my 1:30 class I will do 200 more crunches and twenty more but lifts (each side)
Then after I go to the gym at 5 I will do 100 more crunches and 10 more butt lifts
And if I am really on it again before bed
Making 5 reps of each
So…
Crunches: 500 
Butt lifts: 50

I hate lifting at the gym so i am hoping this arm fat will go away on it’s own. Going to get a SMALL green tea before class and tons of gum! 
I remember this from before and how to do it but the motivation just won’t come back. I have many really pretty skinny friends here in college and at home and I know people are planning on going to the lake and being in bathing suits really soon, so it’s crunch time!  

All time worst. YUCK

Ok so granted I am not back at 138 or 139 where I started but I am WAY back up, I got all the way back to 128 the other day. FUCK YOU PERIOD WATER WEIGHT. I was 118 and then just fucked it all up. 10 pounds in 3 weeks. HOW DOES THIS HAPPEN?
I went to the gym FINALLY today and worked out really hard core, I am back to 125.4 and back on track. I want to get to 110 by the beginning of summer which is only 6 weeks away, and this time I want to keep the weight off!
I need top stop getting drunk to the point where in the morning I just need food to cure the hangover! I need to when I do eat, eat healthy. Foodporndaily.com has saved my life on cravings, but lusting after food stinks. Avoiding binges is so shity dude.
Oh well every day is a new start. Tomorrow the alarm is set for 8 hopefully hit the gym before the 10:30 class. God that sounds shitty.
On a side note, I hate looking straight down at your stomach fat, so much worse than any other view for me right now. Also my arms look like a flying squirrel’s, so wobbly. Also the feeling of fat bouncing when you run. Gross. 
Sorry guys, just trying to avoid a binge right now and ranting helps.